Obsessed

OK, so it's been a while since I posted, I've discovered facebook is easier, although I don't discuss WLS on there b/c a lot of people don't know I had it done and feel like it isn't the place to "justify" myself. That's why I come here, where people who read have been there and understand. So, I title this post obsessed. I'm starting to think I'm obsessed with myself. I love having my picture taken and I love looking at myself in the photos. Is that crazy? I just got back from Texas and uploaded my pics onto my computer and I kept going to the ones that had me in them! LOL. I actually look good. Sometimes it's still hard to believe I look how I look. Anyways, I got on the scale this morning, and I weighted 147, which is good. I really want to start getting serious about the arm surgery. It is $6,000 and I don't have that just laying around, but I've decided that first Ihave to get to 137 which was my all time low after surgery. Once I get there, I think I'm going to ask my grandparents for a $10,000 bond that they have for me. They had mentioned a while back I could have it for the surgery if I wanted but I wasn't sure. I am just so self conscious of my arms. When we were in Texas we went to some friends to swim and we were playing volleyball in the pool. I just felt so bad about myself. I don't mind my boobs and tummy but my arms just aren't as easily hidden! Anyways, nothing new here, hard to believe school will be starting in less than a month. Don't know where the summer went.

Day 2

Breakfast-About 3/4 of a slimfast,didn't have enough powder for a full 8oz.
Lunch-1 stick of cheese, 4 slices of think turkey, mustard
Dinner-

Ran 3/4 mile at incline 3,4,5
Walk 3/4 mile at incline 5, 6.5, 8
Ellipticle 1/2 mile incline 15 rate 4
Did upper body weights

So far so good, 36 hours without snacking. Tonight we are going to Chuck E Cheese tonight for Athena's birthday, not sure what I will eat, can't take a frozen meal with me!

Slacking

Wow, it's been almost a month since I posted. I'm stressing a little over my weight. I'm at 147.2 which is fine b/c I always said between 140-150 I'd be OK, but I have this dress that is a small and boy is it small. I need to drop about 8lbs for it to fit and look nice. It's one of those fitted ones which makes it even tighter. Have to get my snacking under control. So far today I've done good:

Breakfast-slimfast
Lunch-4 think slices of turkey, 1 stick of cheese, mustard
Dinner-Lean Cuisine Chicken Terrki with veggies

Snacks/Bites/Nibbles-Nadda but man is it hard

Ran 3/4 mile at incline 3,4,5
Walked 3/4 mile at incline 5/6.5/8
Did 1/2 mile on the ellipticle at incline 15 and intensity 6
Did lower body weights & 200 sit-ups (OMG my stomach hurts)

Will see how the rest of the day pans out. We have a baseball game at 6 which means dinner will be fast food...lovely.