Sunday, December 30, 2007

Getting Back on Track

Well, if you check my food log blog you'll see I actually posted today after a month and a half! I didn't realize how long it had been since I actually wrote down what I ate! I did pretty good today, but I worked so I wasn't around the house to snack. Tuesday is the day I start working out, I'm totally putting it off because I hate exercising, but it has to be done! No big NYE plans for me, I'm sure I'll be in bed before it hits midnight! My hubby has to work, so no romantic night or dinner or toasts! :( Oh well, after 8 years in his field he's always worked NYE so I'm use to it!

Wednesday, December 26, 2007


Well, we're almost done with the holidays. I can't believe Christmas is already over, but at the same time I'm so ready for the new year to start. I've decided I have to get my head on straight and start exercising and eating right again. I've been doing pretty good until about 2 weeks ago when I started nibbling on candy and cookies and ALL THE WRONG FOODS! I always say tomorrow is a new day and not to say well next Monday or at the first of the year, but not only is tomorrow a new day but the first of the year I will start exercising! I need to go buy my CIB and skim milk and some boca burgers so I can boost my protein and drop a few more pounds I know I put on over the last 10 days. I haven't gotten on the scale because I don't want to see what it says! Will post again soon!

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Happy Holidays To All My Internet Friends

Just wanted to do a quick post to say Happy Holidays to everyone! I can't believe it is already that time of year! Boy have my eating habits have been terrible. I mean way bad. Nothing but snacks, candy, and stuff I know I shouldn't be eating. I've made myself sick a couple times and you'd think that'd stop me, but yea right, my brain is just messed up. Anyways, tomorrow is a new day. We've had company for the last two weeks and had a couple Christmas parties, so that has a lot to do with how I'm eating. Weight hasn't changed, fluctuating between 143 and 146. Hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007


It is hard to believe it has been one year since my surgery. It all went by so much faster than I ever thought it would. I am just amazed with the things I do now. There were so many things I'd dread doing, like getting dressed to go shopping, or cleaning, basically anything that was active and not laying around. My life has changed so so very much. I am still mentally challenged every day when I want a handful of this or a nibble of that or something I know I shouldn't eat and I've accepted that this is something I will have to deal with for the rest of my life. I just tell my self everyday, "today is a new day" so any errors I made yesterday are done and over and I have to start fresh today, there will never be a "well starting next week, or starting Monday, or I mine as well wait until the first of the month. Everyday is a new beginning for me.


Weight 307
Bust 48in
Waist 52.5in
Hips 62in
Arms 19in
Thighs 34in
Bra Sz 48DDD
Clothes Sz 26/28 or XXL
BMI 49.5

Weight 143.5lbs
Bust 33in
Waist 30in
Hips 35.5in
Arms 11.5in
Thighs 21in
Bra Sz 34D
Clothes Sz 6/8 or M/L
BMI 23.8

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Smack.....Today It Hit Me

Ya know you read/hear people talk about how their lives change so much after WLS and how they do things they never did before blah blah blah. I mean, I know things are different for me in so many ways, but today I think it really hit me that things HAVE changed, in a big big big way. It snowed today about 3 inches, so after school of course Jacob was dying to go out sledding so we (me, Jacob, & Athena) all got bundled up and went outside to play in the snow. We were out for about 45 minutes but in that short time we did so much. I was running around, pulling Athena on the sled, throwing snow, rolling up snow to make a big ball and so much more. I would NEVER have been able to do that a year ago. It was such a moment for me being out there having fun with my kids. I think about everything I've missed over the last years because my weight got in the way! I'm so greatful for this second chance in life I've been given.

Friday, November 30, 2007

Just a Quick Check In

I don't want to be one of those people who blog once a month after they've hit their goal, so I figured I'd check in at least. There really is absolutely nothing new to report on my end. I got on the scale this morning and it hasn't moved(last weight in 11/20 146.8), but I'm OK with that. I did have to go shopping because my size 10s were falling off me, so I'm now officially in a size 8. I don't even think I was that small when I got married. I wear a size 8, I NEVER dreamed I'd fit into a size 8. I was going to be happy at a 12 and now here I am 2 sizes smaller! Anyways, another note, I've discovered something terrible and wonderful all in one. The turkey and swiss Freschetta from Wendy's. OMG it is the best sandwich in the entire world! I can eat almost 1/2 of one so one lasts me two meals. It is soooooo yummy! It's bad though because I wouldn't let the kids eat fast food because I don't like anything at Mc Donalds or BK anymore, but now I've found this! NOT GOOD! Only once in a while! I've had it twice in the last two weeks! No more for a while!

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Happy Thanksgiving!

Hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving. It is cold here, was 20 last time I checked. We already had our dinner. I did good, a little turkey, little stuffing, small serving of mashed potatoes, 1/2 slice of cranberry sauce, a little gravy and 1/2 a roll. Going to eat some pumpkin pie later is my absolute favorite! Sounds like I ate a lot of food, but I had a small serving of everything, so I didn't over do it and I felt fine after eating! Can't wait for that pie....YUM!!!!! Hope everyone else did well with eating! Also, we're officially Missouri residents, we closed on our house yesterday! Now to get rid of the house in Vegas.......

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Shocking Weight Post

OK, so I've been eating like crap lately and haven't been on the scale since the 12th (8 days) so I figured this morning what the heck I'll get on and as long as it's not above 150 I'm fine. So I get on the scale and I'm down to 146.8. That's almost 3 more pounds in 10 days. I was shocked. Consider I haven't been exercising and have been eating like crap I just couldn't believe I lost weight. I'm happy about it just shocked!

Monday, November 19, 2007

Skinny, Me?

Ok, so yesterday at work I got called skinny at least 3 times. Seriously, I know compared to ladies who shop in the store I look like a toothpick, but I'm not skinny. I'm healthy. To me skinny is bones and not healthy and I've still got a little meat on my bones. Haven't been on the scale since the 11th, probably tomorrow if I can remember. Eating is crap. What the hell is wrong with my head. I'm snacking and I know I shouldn't be. I wish I could zap my mind! Gotta get myself under control or that weight will creep right back on! Can't believe Thanksgiving is in 3 days, where has the year gone. Nothing new going on here. Still nothing on the Vegas house which is making for a serious financial struggle, but we're managing!

Monday, November 12, 2007

11 Months Ago Today

It's hard to believe it's been 11 months today since my surgery. I can't believe how fast the time has gone by and how fast the weight has come off. At times the weight was coming off so slow, but when I look at the whole picture OMG, losing 157.3lbs in that short time frame is just crazy! I got on the scale this morning, only because it is officially 11 months today, and weighed in the same, 149.7. Anyways, just wanted to post my "anniversary" surgical data. Might do measurements later, but I think I'll wait for my year anniversary. I did measure my chest the other day and I'm a 34D! OMG, who'd a thought, a 34 and I think my hips were like 36, which according to Sir Mix A Lot, is where I should be! :)

Friday, November 09, 2007


Well, I'm there! I weighed in this morning and the scale read 149.7, so I'm officially below my goal! I did the BMI calculator and I'm NORMAL!!!

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Eating Like Crap

Man, I don't know what my deal is. It has to be something mentally or something. I'm eating like crap and eating too much. I don't know why. All of a sudden. Nothing's changed. Am I doing it because I'm at my goal? I just don't get it. Why am I snacking and nibbling all the time. I know it's in my head because I'm not hungry, so what do I do to fix this? I'm not really bored. I've been pretty busy with work and running errands and keeping up with the kids. Any ideas or suggestions? Writing down what I eat doesn't seem to be helping.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Candy Candy Candy Candy and more Candy

OMG, CANDY!!!! It is so hard having candy around. I am glad I don't really care for the hard candy or regular candy. I like the chocolate! So when I went shopping I bought a lot of the regular stuff and I bought the one bite chocolate kind. I've been eating it a little every day, so I'm glad this holiday is over so I can get rid of it now. Thank goodness one little nibble satisfies! I did bad tonight though, 1 small pkg of peanut M & Ms, 1 piece of kit kat, and something else, I can't remember at this second. Temptations are still all around us even if we can't always splurge the way we use to...there still there.

Monday, October 29, 2007


Wow, almost there! I keep saying it's so hard to believe a year ago I was 156lbs heavier than I am now. Anyways, my mom leaves tomorrow, so this will be a short post. Just wanted to get my picture up finally! Posting it here and to the left. Figured this one might be a better view than the one on the left! I think if you click on this one it will open bigger in another window too so you can see a good comparison of the before!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Another Day

Well, tomorrow I turn 31. It's hard to believe a year ago at this time I was over 300lbs. It's amazing how things have changed. I keep forgetting to do a picture, what a ditz. I will try and remember to have one done tomorrow during my "family party". Anyways, my mom is here, so eating will be crummy for the next week, probably won't be losing any weight for the next week. As long as I'm below goal by my 1 year anniversary I'll be happy! Well, that's a lie, I'm already happy and frankly I could care less about that last 3.1lbs. I bought myself a few sweaters from Lane Bryant size 14/16 and they were wayyyyyyy too big. Like just hanging. So it's sad because I can't use my discount, but so awesome that I can't fit into those clothes anymore. I did pick up some panties there size 14/16. I'm wearing an 18/20 that were from the summer, so I figure a 14/16 should fit OK. We'll see if they fit. I had to get a 36 D size bra...yea! Now if we can just get down to a C. Anyways, nothing new to report really, will try and get a picture up soon.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

I'm Back and weighing 153.1

Well, after a nice trip to Vegas I'm back and trying to get caught up! I left Thursday early early in the moring and got back Tuesday afternoon. It was a very busy trip, but it was nice to see my dad and grandparents. I missed the kids a lot though. I've never left Athena before, so that was really hard! Anyways, I'm down to 153.1 as of this morning. Only 3.1lbs to go! I've been slacking with protein and exercise so I know if I'd get my butt in gear I'd already be down that 3.1lbs already. I'm into a size 10 now, so that is totally awesome. Everyone in Vegas was shocked. Even after it only being 2 months since I left they couldn't believe how small I am. What, are you kidding, me small? Puhleaz! I even got called skinny a couple of times, how totally crazy is that! Anyways, I still need to take a picture. My dad took one while I was there, but what I was wearing just didn't reflect how small I've gotten so I need to try and take one this weekend and get it posted. I got caught up on everyone's blogs last night. Will be posting my comments for everyone soon! I've missed reading about everyone. It's funny how you become part of a persons life that you don't even know.

Sunday, October 07, 2007

2 Days of Work

Well, after not working for almost 2 years, I started a part-time job yesterday. I love it! The people are very nice and it's just a totally different job than I've ever done. So far I'm enjoying myself. I totally spaced having Steven take a new picture of me, so hopefully I can have him do that this week. I leave for Vegas Thursday, so I'll try and get one and post it before then. Got on the scale this afternoon.....155.9.....ALMOST THERE......

Friday, October 05, 2007

Changes In My Life

150lbs and almost 10 months after Gastricbypass Surgery my life is completely different.

You read peoples stories and hear them say how different things are for them after the surgery and you wonder if you'll be the same.

I can't believe the difference in the way I feel, the way I act, the things I do. Just the dumb little things that when I think about it I wouldn't have done before I lost the weight. Getting up and down on the floor to play with my kids is sometihng I don't even think twice about. I chase after my kids, I clean my house, I bend over to get stuff out of the cabinets, I run downstairs to get a bottle of water, I fold laundry and put it away all without a break.

Just the oddest things I can do now that before took a lot of effort. I love being this person I've become. I feel like the woman I was 10 years ago before I gained all the weight.

So far, I haven't felt that I've needed a therapist to talk to or counceling. I think a lot of it has to do with the blogging and reading others blogs. It allows me to express how I'm feeling and it lets me know I'm not alone with the things I'm feeling or going through.

Anyways, just had to get that out. I'm in such a different place in my life and wanted to share how I was feeling.

Back to cleaning! I know I can do it, but I HATE IT! Can't wait to get rid of the house in Vegas so I can get cleaning people again! LOL Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. I'll post tomorrow about my first day of work!

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

I think I can see the light

Well, I think there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I'm down to 156.3, only 6.3lbs to go! Wow, so close. It's funny because eventhough the numbers aren't moving like they were, I still seem to be getting smaller. I had to buy a size 10 pants yesterday and my size 12 jeans are getting saggy in the butt and are gaping at the waist. When I was trying on my new work clothes I bought I actually tucked in my shirt and looked good. I'm so glad my tummy isn't all big a flabby, I mean don't get me wrong, there is definately some extra skin there, but it's not too bad. In fact, I could live with it, but it's my arms that I can't stand, so I figure if I fix one I mine as well fix it all! Hopefully next summer I can do that. Anyways, just wanted to update my weight. I'm so excited about having lost 150.7lbs in less than 10 months!

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Starting to Work

Well, I got a job. I start Saturday morning. I've very excited. I'll be working at Lane Bryant. I've never done retail before, so I'm excited to start something totally different, plus I'm totally looking forward to getting out of the house and being around other adults. They are OK with me working 2 1/2 days a week, so that's totally cool. Only bad thing is the discount really won't benefit me anymore because their clothes are too big, but I can still buy jewlery and bras, so that's cool!

I got my hair cut this past weekend. It is short. I chickened out on getting it colored. I like it, just spoiled from being able to tie it back and run out the door. Not use to having to actually fix my hair before I leave the house. Anyways, haven't been on the scale in a few. Will try and remember to strip down and get on tomorrow.

Will have Steven taken a picture of me all dressed up with my new hairdo on my first day of work Saturday.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Made Up With The Scale

Well, I haven't "officially" weighed in since 8/22, so I got on the scale this morning to see where I was. I have gotten on the scale here and there and hadn't lost, but I never did an "official" weigh in. So, when I got on the scale this morning I was at 159.7. Wow, finally I've lost some weight. I've been sitting at 165/166 for like the last 3 weeks so I was getting very aggrivated. I was thrilled this morning when I saw that. I'm only 9.7lbs from my goal of 150! So I lost 6.8lbs over the last month, which I know is great. Now if I can just get that 9.7 off within the next month. We'll see. I can't believe I'm this close and only 9 months and 8 days after surgery. I've worked out the last two days and bumped up my protein. I've been doing carnation and boca burgers, so hopefully that'll help with that last 9lbs.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

A New Day

Well, so far I've started off my day good. I decided if I want that last 15lbs I have to work for it to earn it. Sitting on my rear and eating bad isn't going to get that 15lbs off. I went out and got FF milk and boca burgers so I can bump up my protein. I've tried all sorts of bars and just can't find any with low sugar that I like. I love the slimfast bars but they are loaded with sugar and don't have much protein considering the calories and sugar. So I started my day with my carnation instant breakfast then Athena and I took a walk to the park (I think it's a little over 2 miles round trip). Now I just have to get the mindless snacking taken care of in the evenings. Going to do a boca burger and a little rice for lunch! I can hardly wait! LOL

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Hair Contemplation

I can't decide on a hair style. It's driving me nuts, but I'm trying to figure out what I want before I go to the salon in 2 weeks. I think I've narrowed it down to these 3 but I can't decide which one I like better. Need opinions....please leave a comment on which one you like better. Girl in black shirt, very pale girl, or blonde girl. I have no friends out here yet so I need my internet friends to give me their opinions. To see my current picture scroll down to one of my entries. I can't get it to post on the side because it stretches and looks all crazy! Didn't get on the scale this weekend because I know it hasn't budged. Going to get some skim milk and boca burgers tomorrow so I can get more protein and hopefully start losing again. Hope everyone has a nice week!

Thursday, September 13, 2007

The Scale is not moving

The scale is stuck...literally, it's not moving, it's just sitting there at 165...stupid scale....ya know, it's so funny because months ago I said I'd be thrilled to get to 175 and that anything after that would be great but I wouldn't freak out, so why am I freaking out at 165, why do I want that 150 so bad, I mean seriously, I've lost 142lbs. Anyways, going to get back on track with working out now that the family is gone. Next wave comes in October 23 and I'm leaving for a business trip October 11-16, so I have a month. I'd like to drop another 5lbs before I leave, so I've gotta start getting my protein again and working out. Going on Sept 29 for a new hair style. Thinking something like the picture to the right. What do you guys think? It's drastic but I need a big change. Thinking about changing my color too, just not sure what color, maybe red or black, something totally different....give me feedback...would love to hear what you guys think!

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Yet Another Day

Nothing new to report on this end. I had an interview today. Looking for something a couple days a week to get out of the house and interact with other adults. Plus a little extra spending money wouldn't be bad. Retail stores don't pay squat though. Oh well, I'm not out for big bucks or a management job, so I guess you take what you can get, plus I'm being super picky with the days and times I can work. Anyways, forgot to get on the scale this morning, will try and remember to do it tomorrow. We have family coming in, so dreading eating for the next week.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Holy Cow!

Well, I finally got my butt in gear and and worked out today. I should have done more but I figured something is better than nothing. I'll work back up to where I was. I was sweating my butt off though, OMG the humidity. I was literally dripping wet. It felt good to work out though, I'm glad I did it. Now I have to convince myself to do it at least every other day at the least!

So, I went shopping on Sunday (all by myself, oh how nice it was). Let's just say I haven't been shopping alone since last year. I love my kids but gosh, it was so nice to be able to take my time and brouse. So, I had a giftcard for Macys so I started out there. Now, remember, I'm from Las Vegas, plus I've lost over 140lbs, so I have like zero clothes. I ended up getting a nice heavy jacket, 5 shirts, and a pair of jeans. So, sizes please........the jacket, well, a medium fit but I figured if I'm wearing it over a sweater or something that it would be a little tight, so I got a large. The shirts I ended up getting a L/XL in them. They are fitted so I probably could have done a M/L but I don't like clothes clinging to me. My jeans.........drum roll please.....a size 12.....yep, a size 12. I was totally excited about that. I tried on some 12s in the junior section, yea, not happening. What exactly is a junior anyways? I always thought it was trendier clothes, but obviously not. Guess they're for people before "child bearing hips and thighs". A couple fit but they looked like they were painted on my thighs and ass! Anyways, I went to the normal section and got some Levis. I think I have enough clothes to get me through winter, considering I don't go anywhere. Still sitting at 166.5.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

For some reason when I added the picture to the left it kept stretching it and making it all crazy, so I figured until I can fix it I'll just insert the picture here. This was taken Sunday, so 8 months and 2 weeks post-op. I've lost 140.5lbs. The shirt and pants in this picture are both a little big, but it's all I have. Since it is going to start getting cold soon I'm holding off on shopping for another 6 weeks or so. The shirt is an XL and the jeans are a 14. I went "trying on" shopping at Sears Grand last week and squeezed into a 10 but OMG I could barely breath, so I'm thinking I'll be able to do a 12 shortly b/c they were a little snug too. I look at myself and cannot believe the change from 8 months ago. When I'm out and I see people who are severly overweight I want to just go tell them, OMG, I was like you and now look at me thanks to this tool I received. I don't understand why insurances don't pay for this. Getting up the nerve to have this surgery was the best thing I could have ever done. I think I look younger too, what do you guys think? It seems like when people lose weight they look older because all the wrinkles that were filled out with fat show up. Who knows, I just know I'm feeling great and can't imagine being where I was 8 months ago. I'm a totally different person. Have to start working out again. Hopefully this week I can get my butt in gear now that everything in the house is in place! Thinking maybe doing a family evening walk or something. That might be nice for a change! Even two times a week or something!

Saturday, August 25, 2007

I'm Back!!!

Well, I'm finally back up and running! Let's see where to begin without boring everyone. August 8 & 9 packers, August 10 loaders, August 11 drove out of Vegas, August 13 arrived in Kansas City and got to see my new house and get the keys, August 14 nothing much to do in an empty house, August 15 loaders unload, August 16 the work begins. We've busted our butts for the last week getting this house together and I'm proud to say that there are only 2 boxes left that will stay for a while until I get the motivation to hang shot glass holders! The house is absolutely beautiful. I love it. It is super big too! The yard is totally awesome, nothing like Vegas. There are big trees and tons of grass. There are actually deer, rabbits, squirrels, and chipmunks in our back yard. The other day we were in the kitchen and a mama and baby deer were in the back just nibbling on some grass. What a totally different world! Going to snap pictures of the house, so I'll try and put one of of the front so you all can see it. Going to do an updated picture tomorrow too, so I'll get that posted soon!

Let's see, weight wise, with all the running up and down stairs and lifting and unpacking I dropped almost 5lbs. I'm officially down to 166.5 as of the 22nd. That means only 16.5lbs to goal! It's still hard for me to believe I'm under my original realistic goal and so close to my happy goal! My eating has been pretty good. I've been eating a real breakfast everymorning since Steven is home in the morning. I think maybe I'll start doing the Carnation for lunch every other day or something. Haven't exercised at all, but then again, like I've had time and plus hello, busting my but putting a house together! I did walk 2 miles on Wednesday though. Athena and I took a walk to the park which is a mile away. It is so humid here though, OMG, talk about sweating!

Anyways, I think that's about it on this end. Going to start updating again like I always do plus going to get back to my eating blog! Going to get back into the exercise routine Monday!

Now, I'm off to read up on everyone's lives for the last two weeks!

Thursday, August 09, 2007

The Ladies Are Officially Smaller

Well, the packers have been here for the last two days and there are boxes everywhere you look. They finished around noon today, so we decided after Athena got up to go to the mall to get out of the house. I just got new bras but they're too big, so we went to get some new ones. I love going to Layne Bryant. They have the best bras and they're usually on sale. Plus they always have someone there to measure you and with my weight changes I wanted to see where I was. I almost fell over when she told me I need a 38D. WHAT?????? I asked her are you sure you did the math right? I told her I'm currently in a 40DDD that is too big, but to go from a DDD to a D, that can't be right. She said, well, let's try on a 38 D and a 38DD and go from there. So, I took one of each. I tried on the D first and it fit! OMG, it fit, what the heck! So, I'm officially a 38D......I was a 36C 10 years ago, so looks like I might see that number again....I'm just so happy to be in a D. Plus I look so much smaller now and perkier!

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Down to 173.4

Well, only 23.4lbs to go! I can't believe I am under my realistic goal of 175. I don't think I even realized it until I typed it. The other day I was at 174 and it didn't even register! To date I've lost 133.6lbs. That is INSANE! That's a whole adult! I now have less than 25lbs to go to my happy goal. Even if I get within 10lbs of it I am already so proud of myself and tickled that I'm wearing a size large in a shirt and a size 14. I never though I'd see those things again. Even some of my shoes are too big. I dont' know if it's because of the weight loss or what, but I have three pairs that are too big that I'm getting rid of! Anyways, just wanted to share my happy news with everyone! Eventhough the pounds are coming off much slower then before, I'm still happy to seem them coming off one at a time! Remember....every day is a new commitment!

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Down A few More Pounds

I guess getting sick pays off. I'm down to 174.5lbs. That's another 1.7 lbs lost since Tuesday. At least I got something out of being miserable for a day!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Not Feeling So Hot

So, we went out this morning and ran some errands. When we got home I felt a little strange. All of a sudden it hit me and I had to run to the bathroom. Then I started shaking and had goosebumps all over. I had to curl up on the couch with a heavy blalnket. Finally I went and ran a super hot bath and soaked for about 20 minutes. Then I got out and laid in bed for about an hour and a half. THen I was hot, OMG, so super hot. I finally got up and am feeling a little better. My head is pounding so I took some tyelenol. I'm not hot or cold anymore, thank goodness because that shaking was freaking me out. Anyways, hopefully it's just some little bug or something. I ate the same thing as the kids last night and this morning, so I know it's not food poison. So strange how one minute I was fine and the next felt like I was going to die. I'm fixing to go find something for lunch. Really not hungry, but I know I should eat a little something.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Down Another 1.3

Well, I got on the scale today instead of tomorrow and I'm down another 1.3lbs from last Wednesday. Was hoping for a little more but I've been eating bad and haven't exercised. Over the last few days I've been super busy patching holes and painting and sorting through stuff to give away. You don't realize how much there is to do to prepare for moving. I can tell my mind is really messed up this week. I'm a nervous wreck about moving about money about leaving my home. I can tell because I've been grazing eating a lot lately. Everyday I try and tell myself to make a fresh start with my eating habits because I dont' want to end back up where I was. I'm not eating junk or a lot, just the grazing. A bite here a bite there. Anyways, I know it's my old habits trying to sneak back out but I have to control myself and tell myself that there are other alternatives to help with my worries.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Officially a 14

Well, I'm officially a size 14. I fit into a cute pair of pants I bought 2 months ago, and my size 16 old navy jeans are getting a little saggy. I got on the scale this morning, same as Wednesday, so that's good! Anyways, going to try and work out tomorrow. We were running errands all day today, then when we got home I started taking pictures down and patching holes up. Nobody came to the open house, but after talking to the realtor, he said his last 4 he did had nobody show up. Guess people just don't go to them like they use to. I have to stay positive. Something will happen soon. I just keep asking that everyone say a prayer for me. I'm not use to living paycheck to paycheck and with mortgage and rent that's what we're going to be doing! Anyways, might get dressed up and do a new picture tomorrow. We're going to my dad's to BBQ hamburgers (had patties in the freezer and obviously can't take them with to MO). Anyways, getting excited, and nervous, and dreading the whole move part of this. We have so much stuff, OMG, you don't realize it until you just stop and look around! Hope everyone had a great Saturday!

Friday, July 27, 2007

Leaving Las Vegas

Well, we signed a lease to own contract for a house that I love! The movers are coming to pack on the 8th and 9th and load on the 10th. I can't believe we're actually leaving. Unfortunately our house hasn't sold, so keep your fingers crossed that something will lhappen soon, as paying a mortgage and rent is going to be tight. We're doing an open house tomorrow, so maybe something will come from that. Nothing new to report, will try and get on the scale tomorrow morning to see where i"m at. Tomorrow will be crazy because I've gotta make sure everything is perfect for the open house. We have to go to the library to return books, have a birthday party, have to go to a clients to pick up mail, and stop at the post office. Yikes! Anyways, hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Weigh In Day

Well, I got on the scale today and weighed in at 177.5 Down 1.2lbs from Sunday! Eating habits haven't been good though, not sure what my problem is. Been very snacky lately. Stupid brain......urg! Can't they reroute something in there!

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Got the push to work out today

So, after I put Athena down for a nap I was like, eh, I really don't want to work out today. I thought, oh, I'll try on some of my clothes my friend has passed down to me. Well, after going through the bag, I got 2 pairs of jeans (size 14), a pair of sweat pants (size Lg), and a pair of shorts (size 14). There are still several pairs of jeans that I'm not in yet, but I will be soon! So, after trying on clothes and having some that fit, I was like, geez, I need to work out so I can get into those other clothes in that bag! I'm in a size 14, how totally awesome! I was a size 26/28 when I started this process!!!!! I'm shooting for a 10/12. Anyways, just wanted to share what my push was!

Down a tad bit

Well, I remembered to strip down and get on the scale this morning. I'm down to 178.7, so that's 1/2 a pound from Wednesday. Nothing new to report on this end. I'm really going to try and motivate myself to work out today. Didn't work out on Fri or Sat. I can't believe the weekend is already over.......uhg!

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Why do we do what we do?

I use that title because, why do we do the things we do. I know my limits yet my mind tells me otherwise. Last night around 10 I got hit with wanting a snack. There was some leftover spaghetti in the refridgerator, so I thought, ooooh a few bites of cold spaghetti sounds soooooo yummy! So I opened the container and took about 3 bites. Now, I know I should have just gone up to bed and the snack "craving" would have passed, but I gave in. I got what I deserved, wasn't two minutes later I was hanging out with the porcelin god. I knew when I was eating it I was going to get sick. I just had that feeling, yet I kept eating. Too bad when they're in there tweeking your insides they can't implant a chip in your head! The only reason for my eating had to be being bored. I don't think I'm depressed or sad, I think I just had nothing else to do but watch TV and when I was heavier what goes with TV......eating/snacking. Just thought I'd share my feelings. I think nights seem to be hardest for me and I guess it's because I'm alone with nothing to do. You can only read/watch TV/surf the net so much, so I get snacky in my head. Oh well. I forgot to weight in this morning, so I will try and remember to get on the scale tomorrow morning when I get up. Hope everyone is having a good weekend!

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Obese No More

Well, I got on the scale this morning and I'm down to 179.2. I'm officially no longer obese and am only "over weight". I'm down 3.2lbs from last Wednesday. That means only 4.2lbs until realistic goal and 29.2lbs to happy goal! Whooohoooo!!!! Almost there!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Finally Worked Out

Well, my dad called last night to see if I was coming over today to work out. I wanted to say, probably not because I just don't feel like it, but with my dad that excuse would not cut it, so I said yes I'll be over to work out. Of course, now that I worked out I'm glad I did. I did 1.5 miles on the treadmille at a 3 incline and of those 1.5 miles I RAN 1/4 of a mile! Wow, I didn't kill over, although I was sweating! I also did some light weights. As much as I didn't want to go I'm so glad I did. Anyways, going to try and remember to jump on the scale tomorrow to see where I'm at.

Sunday, July 15, 2007


I just thought I'd post to ask for everyone to say a prayer for me that our house sells. Every day gets harder and harder without Steven here. We miss him so much. We had someone look at the house today and they liked it but they have a house to sell. Anyways, just asking for everyone who reads to say a prayer.

Got a lot done today. I cleaned off the patio and cleaned out the fountain in the back yard. I ended up with more water on me then anything! It was hot outside, but not too bad. I did everything in the morning before the temperature rose! I got a lot of work done today too so I was happy about that! I've almost got all my clients reconciled through June. Anyways, had to get the house all in order too for when the people came to look at it. So I was rushing around cleaning the mirrors and the glass. Anyways, just finishing up laundry and waiting for my sister to come over with the dog. We put water in the little pool, so the kids are going to play outside in the water.

Will post Wednesday with my weight...maybe....unless I can hold off until Saturday! :) Hope everyone has a great week!

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Saturday Weigh In

I wasn't going to get on the scale and actually didn't even get on until after I had eaten breakfast and lunch and had quite a bit of water to drink. Anyways, I'm at 181 even. That means only 31lbs to goal! Almost there. Nothing new on this end. Feeling a little icky, it's that time of the month and boy did it hit hard this month!

Thursday, July 12, 2007

7 Months Ago Today

Well, it's hard to believe 7 months ago I was having surgery! The time has just flown by! I put on my shorts today (the only pair I have) that are a size 16 and they're starting to get a little big. Maybe within the next 2 weeks I'll get into a 14. Anyways, nothing new to report, just wanted to "mark" my 7 month anniversary!

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Down A Few More

Well, I was going to wait until Saturday but couldn't so I got on the scale this morning. I'm down to 182.4, so that's 4.3lbs lost since June 23 (18 days). I guess that's not too bad, considering from the 28th-4th I ate totally bad and didn't work out! Only 32.4lbs to go to get to my happy goal (7.4 to get to realistic goal) although that one has gone out t he window. I will be happy to get to 175 but I will not settle at 175. I think my doctor said 165 to get to a healthy/normal BMI. Anyways, that's all for today!

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Well, just another Saturday. I did not get on the scale today, as I didn't want to see what it'd say. Next Saturday I will. I didn't exercise today, as really, I forgot. I got busy cleaning out cabinets and drawers in the kitchen. I have so much crap I don't use, I figured moving is a good reason to get down and dirty and get rid of stuff. My sister is coming over tomorrow to "go shopping" from my things I don't want. I was up and down and on the floor, but I must say, WOW, how easy is it to crawl around under cabinets and be on the floor when you're 120lbs lighter! I was amazed at the way I was all over and under!
Tomorrow I'm going to take it easy and get in at least a mile on the elliptical!
To answer your question, Susy, yes we're moving to either Missouri or Kansas (haven't found a house yet, so not sure what side we'll end up on). My husband was relocated back in February, so we've been apart for 5 months now. Hopefully our house will sell soon. The market is just terrible right now. I was reading about caffine and I didn't know we shouldn't have it. I drink iced tea every now and then. It goes right through me, I guess that's because of the caffine. I'll have to look for caffine free bags, I'm sure they must make them.
Only 2 hamburgers left in the fridge, I'm tempted to just toss them, as I don't think I'll ever want to eat another one after eating them for 7 days!!

Friday, July 06, 2007

Tough Day

Well, my hubby left today, so we're all bummed. We'll have to get back on routine tomorrow so we can stay busy and not dwell on him not being here. Tomorrow is weigh in day, but I'm contemplating on getting on the scale, as I know the number has gone up a few pounds with my terrible eating the last week. I figure I won't weight in and I'll get back to my routine tomorrow then next Saturday weigh in. Our house has now been on the market for like 6 months, so that's got me down too. I just wish someone would come buy it so we could get out to KC and be a family again. Anyways, I'm sick of hamburgers. We did them on the grill Monday for Athena's b-day and Wednesday for the 4th and I still have 3 1/2 in the fridge. I'm going to get back on my Carnation breakfast tomorrow and I'm going to add a scoop of the strawberry protein powder to see if adding the protein helps. I figure chocolate and strawberries are good together, so a shake might not be bad. We'll see. Anyways, that's all for today, I might post over the weekend. If not, I will next Saturday with my weight (hopefully it'll be the same or lower)!

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Back on Track

It's been a while since I've posted. My mom and my husband have both been here, so I've been busy and not eating good. In any case, my mom left today and my husband leaves Friday morning. I haven't gotten on the scale, I think subconsciously because I know I might have gone up a few pounds or at least stayed the same. I have been eating terrible and eventhough my "eating blog" doesn't reflect it, grazing a lot, which I normally don't do. I haven't exercised either, which I feel bad about, but I just didn't do it, and there were a couple of days when I could have but chose not to, so I have nobody to blame for my actions but myself. I'll get back on routine Friday when Steven leaves. I'll get on the scale Saturday to see where I'm at. Nothing much to report on this end, just been out and about with my mom.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

All Done With "The Pill"

I was going to post yesterday but just never got around to it! I took the last pill yesterday! What a day! I'm so glad I don't have to take those gallbladder pills again! Now to find a new multiple-vitamen because taking those flinstones twice a day are just terrible! I don't know how kids eat them! Anyways, have to work tomorrow so I'm turning in early tonight! Will try and post my weigh in Wednesday!

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Officially down 120.3lbs in 6 months & 11 days

WOW, hard to believe one can drop that much in such a short time! I was thrilled when I got on the scale this morning and was down to 186.7. That put me just 36.7lbs away from my goal. I lost 5.6lbs this week. Very happy with that number!!

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Down 3.2lbs this week

Well, since last Saturday I've droppend another 3.2lbs! That takes me to 192.3, only 42.3lbs to goal! If I continue losing 3lbs/week I should be at my goal within the next 14 weeks! Wow, that means if I lose 3lbs a week I can be 150 by September 22. How awesome if I hit goal by then. Who knows if it will happen and if it doesn't thats OK, I'm just a numbers person! Anyways, very excited about my loss this week! Will update when I weigh in Wednesday! Going out to eat for Father's day tomorrow. I hate going out because I never know what to order. At least I can always fall back on a salad! Gotta go fold sheets, will post Wednesday!

Friday, June 15, 2007

Doctor Appointment Today

Well, I had my 6 month doctor's appointment today. The doctor was very pleased with my progress so far. He told me as long as I follow the "3 Golden Rules" I will be successful. After reading so many blogs his rules made me laugh because I read what everyone eats/drinks and it's amazing how different doctors have different rules!
My Doctor's 3 Golden Rules:

1. Eat only 3 times a day absolutely NO snacking in between meals
2. Do NOT drink your calories
3. Portion control, no more than 4oz per meal

Luckily I pretty much abide by all of them with the exception of snacking to take my stupid gallbladder pill, which will be all gone in about 10 days!

Just thought I'd share the rules with everyone.

I asked about calcium supplements and he basically said it wasn't necessary but if it would give me peace of mind, I could take them. He said the Viactin (I think that's what they're called) the chocolate chews was OK. I figure get calcium and a chocolate fix all in one!

Will check in Saturday with my weight!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Feeling Pretty at 6 Months

You know, I never looked at myself in the mirror and thought I was ugly but I never felt pretty, if that makes any sense. It's amazing how you see yourself after losing 113.4lbs. You read that right, as of today, my 6 month anniversary, I've lost 113.4lbs. Down from 307 to 193.6. Measurement Changes:

Hips 62 to 46

Waist 52.5 to 39

Chest 48 to 37 1/2

Size 26/28 to 16

BMI 49.52 to 32.21

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Weigh In Day

Well, I got on the scale this morning and it read 195.5....that's 2.someting pounds gone from the 30th. Only 45.5lbs to go to get to my happy goal! My legs are killing me from working out yesterday. Not sure if it was the running or the weights but OMG they hurt! Anyways, very excited that the numbers are slowly going down. Hopefully I'll be to my happy goal by my 1 year anniversary! I'll update Tuesday and put new pictures, as it'll be my 6 month anniversary. Hard to believe it's already been 6 months. I never expected the time and pounds to go by so quick! Officially down 111.5lbs since pre-op appointment on the 6th of December where I weighed in at 307lbs.

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Home Sweet Home

As much fun as vacation always is, it is always nice to get back home and back into a routine! I'm happy to report that I did not gain one pound while on vacation. I weighed in this morning at 197.7. Still only 47.7 away from my happy goal! I swam a few days but did not work out while we were gone and I didn't eat the best either. You can go read my eating and exercising tracking blog if you're interested in what all I had while vacationing! Steven leaves tomorrow so I'll get back on track with exercising and eating. Anyways, nothing new to report on this end. I am going to return several things I bought for our trip that I didn't wear. Luckily I left the tags on just in case. I think I have one pair of shorts, one pair of capris, a swim suite and 2 tops. Probably about $85 in stuff, so I'm so happy that I kept the receipts and left the tags on until I wore things! Just think it's silly to keep them when hopefully by next month they won't fit! My 6 month anniversary is coming up next Tuesday, so I'll do measurements, weigh-in, and picture then! Will post again soon!

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Enjoying Seattle

Well, we headed to Seattle today for a much needed vacation! I got on the scale this morning for my mid-week weigh-in, however I can't remember what it said. I know it was 197 but I'm not sure of the tenths column. Anyways, probably won't post until we get back, but I will keep posting my eating and exercising!

Sunday, May 27, 2007

I Ran!!

Well, I ran today! First time in at least 10 years! It wasn't much, but I did it! I got on the treadmill and decided to run/walk for my mile. I walked 2 minutes and ran 1 minute. It was hard but it felt good. I walked at a 3mph pace and ran at a 3.9mph pace. I was sweating my buns off that's for sure! Went shopping and got a few more things today. How awesome to buy a 16! Anyways, nothing new to report, just had to share that I ran I ran!! :)

Saturday, May 26, 2007


Let's see, where to start! First on the scale and I am no longer in the 200's! I'm sitting at funny is that! Thank goodness for that .1lb that took me below the 200 mark! Second big thing, I went shopping for pants because as I've said before, I literally own one pair, and I had to buy a size 16! Just jumped right over the 18! The only pair of pants I have are a 20 and were getting a little baggy, but when I tried an 18 on they fit good but were a tad bit big, so my sister suggested going smaller even if they are a little snug, so I did! And to my surprise, the 16's fit great! A little tight on the rear, but who cares! My butt looks great in those jeans! Anyways, just had to share my happy exciting news with everyone! Just hope I dont' sit at 199.9 now for 2 weeks, like I did when I hit the 100lb mark! Hope everyone has a nice long holiday weekend! :)

Friday, May 25, 2007

First Day of the last Bottle

Well, today was the first day of my last bottle of gallbladder pills.......yippie!!!! Finally, I'm so excited! I wasn't going to post today, but was so excited about opening that last bottle, I figured I'd share my excitement with everyone! I went shopping today at the thrift store and didn't find anything. I'm just not patient enough to look at every tag on every pair of pants to see the size. Hopefully I can find some stuff at Ross's. I treated myself today to a facial and bikini wax (ouch). The facial was absolutely wonderful. I go to this place, Jamie Lee Metz, and for $75 you get an hour and a half treatment. You get aroma therapy, a 1/2 hour shoulder/neck/back massage, hand and foot massage, scalp massage and the facial. It is totally awesome!!! Anyways, It was a nice treat for me.
We went rollerskating last night and OMG what fun! I haven't done that in over 10 years and can't imagine doing it with that extra 100lbs that are now gone! We had fun. Athena (who's almost 2) skated and was absolutely adorable! She loved watching the kids, but she had fun skating (more like being drug around by me and my sister). My sister babysat today while I went out and about. She's staying the night again tonight and we're going go to breakfast tomorrow and go to the mall and Michaels! Fun Fun! Anyways, will post tomorrow with my "weigh in"! Maybe I'll be under 200............We'll know in about 12 hours! :) Until then....

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

I cheated

Well, I cheated today. I got the scale down off the shelf and got on. I'm going to pretend like I'm a little kid, Susy did it! :) The good thing is after I was done, I put it back on the shelf until Saturday! I'm down to 202.6lbs. Almost below the 200 mark!!! Whoo Hoo that will be a party day! So I have a client that owns a vitimen store, so I talked to him about protein and he gave me some strawberry protein powder. He made me a sample to try and it wasn't bad. You mix 1 scoop of powder with 8oz of water. It's got 24g protein and like 140 calories, so way more protein then the carnation. You can even add ice and some fruit and make a smoothie. Going to try it tomorrow with just the water and powder, so I'll update with how it tastes for an actual meal!
When I went to get dressed this morning I put on my literally one and only pair of jeans and they are baggy. I'm going to the thrift store this week to see if I can find some cheap clothes to take on our vacation. I just can't see spending $20 on a pair of pants that I'll wear for a month. So hopefully I can find some nice stuff that is cheap at the thrift store. We'll see what they have!

Saturday, May 19, 2007


OK, so it's not much but the scale finally moved. I lost 1.7lbs, so I'm down to 205.3lbs. I've worked out 5 days in a row now, so I guess maybe between the added protein and the working out that's what got the numbers moving again. After I weighed in this morning I literally took the scale and put it on the shelf in the closet so I'm not tempted daily to get on and be disappointed! Will report my weight next Saturday!

Thursday, May 17, 2007

10 Year Anniversary

Well, today is my 10 year anniversary and my husband isn't even here with me so we could celebrate! :( I did't get on the scale today, I'm going to get on Saturday. Hopefully at least one pound will be gone! Nothing exciting to report, worked out today, my body is killing me!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

New Direction

Well, since I still haven't dropped one measly pound, I decided to take a different approach. I figured maybe if I start writing down everything I eat and my exercise that'll keep me focused on what is working. I went out today and got some boca burgers (loaded with protein) and some banquet chicken breasts (lots of protein too). And I got the good ol' Carnation Instant Breakfast. I know I haven't been getting enough protein and have to do something about it, so I did! I went shopping. As you'll see I added my "exercise and food log" to "Others I like to visit", so feel free to visit that one to see what I'm eating and give me any ideas. I'm posting there mainly for myself to see what I'm eating, but want to share it with others to give them ideas or to get ideas from them! My body is hurting from lifting weights today! Wow! Plus it is super duper hot here, so walking this morning kicked my butt. I didn't think I was going to make it the last block! :) Happy Tuesday!

Saturday, May 12, 2007

5 Months Ago Today

It's hard to believe it's already been 5 months since my surgery. I got on the scale this morning and am sitting at 207. That's 100lbs lost since pre-op appointment on the 6th of December and 90.6lbs lost since surgery day. Although I've b een sitting at 207 for 10 days, just from April 12th until today I've dropped 14.5lbs. So, if I continue at that rate, I should be at my goal of 150lbs within the next 5 months. Hopefully that's how it will play out! Just within the last month I've lost another 2 inches off my bust, 4 inches off my waist, and 2 inches off my hips. So eventhough that scale isn't moving the way it was before, I am still shrinking in other numbers.
I have one thing I want to ask, and it's probably TMI, but who cares, I post my weight. So, has anyone had crazy periods since the surgery. I normally am always regular and today I started (I think) but I'm not suppose to start until the 23rd. Just a little curious if it's because of the change in weight or what. Up until now I've been regular this is the first time something strange has happened. Anyone who has experienced odd things let me know! :)

Wednesday, May 09, 2007


The scale won't move!!! It's driving me nuts! A whole week and not one pound lost!!! Not ONE!!! Anyways, just had to get that out! Walked over 2 miles yesterday, but didn't work out today. Really had no valid excuse, just didn't do it. Gotta get my butt in gear! Need some words of encouragement, so feel free to post! I just hate working out. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. I hate it! I read blogs of people who want to become runners or hikers or whatnot and I wonder, why can't I feel that way. Why can't I want to run or exercise. What's wrong with me? Granted, I can work out for 20 minutes and not feel like I'm going to die, like I did 5 months ago, but why don't I look forward to exercising. I have things in place. Have the elliptical by the TV, so there's no "it's boring" excuse. Anyone else feel like me when it comes to exercising? Thinking about posting daily what I'm eating too. Maybe that is part of my problem. I know I don't do enough protein. Just not a meat eater, but the doctor said not to worry when I went in for my 3 month check-up.

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Nothing New To Report

well, there's really nothing new to report, just thought I'd post a little something. The scale has not budged since my big day Wednesday! I'm sorta bummed, but I know hitting these slow points is normal! I just hope I can get below 200 by the end of the month. We're heading to Seattle for a visit with family and to get in some R & R! I bought a swim suit (size 16, whoo hoo). It's one of those tankinies (sp). The top is a racer back so it is so comfortable, I don't even need a bra under it (something new for a change). That was exciting! Anyways, I didn't do much of anything this weekend, actually just took it easy! That's it for today, hopefully I'll drop a few pounds and be able to post about it!

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Hit the Big Milestone!

Well, today was a big day! I hit the big 100 today! Wow, 100 pounds lost in 121 days! YIKES! I can't believe I've lost that much weight! Only 57lbs to get to my "happy goal"! I'm so happy I hit that big number before 5 months! I'm expecting the next 57 will take until my 1 year anniversary. I'm trying to remind myself the loss isn't going to continue at this rate! Anyways, just wanted to share my totally awesome news! I'll be doing a new picture at my 6 month mark in June!

Monday, April 30, 2007

The Numbers Keep Going Down

Well, I got back on track today! I worked out on the elliptical. I only did 15 minutes but that was long enough after not working out for almost 3 weeks. I got on the scale before I showered and I'm down to 208. Only 1lb to go to get to the "100 pound club" and 9 to get below 200. What a milestone that will be! So, I went to get dressed for this convention I was working yesterday and I thought I'd wear my only pair of black dress pants that I just wore on the 19th and they fell off me! They were way way way too big! I ended up wearing jeans. I literally have only 1 pair of pants that fit me. A size 20 pair of Levis! They fit good and my butt atcually looks descent in them! Anyways, that's it for today! Just waiting to drop below 200....hopefully within the next couple weeks!

Friday, April 27, 2007

Big Mistake

Well, I made a big mistake today. I was shopping today for an event I'm working tomorrow and I bought a bunch of breakfast stuff, muffins etc. When I got home the chocolate covered donuts looked SOOOOOO yummy. I decided to dig in and have a few bites of one, I can eat sweets, so what is it going to hurt. OMG. I took about 3 bites and was fine, but about 30 minutes later gag. I am feeling so terrible it's not even funny. Talk about feeling sick sick sick! So much for chocolate! Anyways, lesson learned. I got on the scale today and I'm down to 212. That's 95lbs lost since surgery! Only 5lbs until I join the 100lb club! I'm hoping to pass that mark by my 5 month anniversary which is on the 12th of May. I was going to get back into the work out routine yesterday, but just wasn't feeling it. I know that's no excuse. Plus I'm working all day tomorrow and Sunday so I wouldn't have worked out those days, so I figured Monday is the magic day to get back on track! Plus I know that if I get working out that'll help me with those last 62lbs to get to my "happy goal" of 150. Saying that just sounds so crazy. I might actually get down to 150. If I do reach that goal that would put me at over 100% of my excess weight lost! Anyways, enough for today, note to self, no donuts ever! YUCK! Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Seriously, What's Up

OK, so this might sound crazy, but I jumped on the scale today because I was feeling a little paraniod that I might have gotten back up to the 220s, but to my surprise, I'm down to 214.2. What the heck is that about!!!! I got off and back on again because I thought I saw it wrong! And that was in the afternoon after eating 2 meals and drinking lots of water! Guess it just comes in sperts! I went shopping today, got a size 20 pants! How great! I also finally had to break down and buy new bras and panties, although I didn't want to! I was a size 46DDD pre-op and had to buy a 42DDD today. Just wish that cup size would get down to about a C! Anyways, that's all for today! The size 20s are a little tight but my 22s are just hanging on me. I can't believe only 15lbs to get below 200. That will be a party day for sure!

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Down .9lbs from yesterday

I know it's not much, but I lost another .9lbs. I was stoked to get on that scale this morning and see that! Got some pictures finally posted, so you can see the difference. I'm so proud of myself!

Saturday, April 21, 2007

130 Days Post Op

Well, I got on the scale this morning and it finally was a little lower. I'm down to 218.3, only 19lbs to get below 200. How totally awesome will that be. It's actually going to happen and I actually believe it's going to happen! I have 68.3lbs to get to my "happy goal" of 150 or 43.3lbs to get to my "realistic goal" of 175. It felt so good to get on that scale this morning and have that number in the teens. I hadn't lost anything since the 12th, so this was good! I needed it. Seeing that scale stay the same day after day is hard when you've dropped so much so fast! Haven't been working out with my mom and brother here, but they leave Tuesday so I'll get back into the routine next Thursday!

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Just another day

Well, my mom and brother have been here since Saturday and my eating hasn't been that good. Not that I'm overdoing it, just eating the totally wrong foods. Let's see today for lunch I had some chips with cheese dip....not good, then for dinner last night I had some homemade chex mix...I'm only eating 3 times a day though, so it's not like I'm grazing all day long. Anyways, still not below 220, but almost, I'm at 221.5. Very anxious to get below the 220 mark. My home computer is on the fritz, so I don't have a current picture, but hopefully this weekend I can get one and post it.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Just another Day

Well, it's official, I totally slacked this week with working out. I walked 2 miles Monday and that was it. How totally sad! I did have valid reasons though, it's not like I was just sitting around doing nothing. I've been craving salad lately. I had it Thursday night for dinner, Friday for lunch and today for lunch. I have a little lettuce, a couple tomatos, some fresh cheese, cubed ham, croutons and dressing. It is sooooooo good! Of course it's a small salad, although my eyes are bigger than my stomach and I ususally make too much! I'm totally hookoed on grape coolaid made with splenda. It is so good! Well, my mom and brother get here in a few hours, so I'm just sitting back and relaxing and watching National Lampoons European Vacation. One of my favs! Will try and post again soon!

Friday, April 13, 2007

4 Month Update

Well 4 months ago I was having surgery. Hard to believe it's been that long already! It's flown by! So, the official weight loss is....I'm down to 221.5, which makes my total loss since surgery 76.1 and total loss since pre-op appointment 85.5. I have 71.5lbs to go to get to my happy goal of 150lbs. Wow, that actually seems reachable. Odd 4 months ago I would never have thought I could get below 200 and now I'm thinking I can get below 175! I haven't worked out in a few days. I've been working working working. I'm going to try and work out tomorrow and Saturday. My mom and brother get here Saturday evening. Anyways, that's it for today! One more thing, my stats, to date, I've lost 101/2 inches off my bust, 10 inches off my waist, 14 inches off my hips! BMI from 49.5 to 36.85 Go Amber!!! :)

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Almost 4 Months

Well, tomorrow is my 4 month anniversary. I'll be weighing in and posting. I know I won't be down my 90lbs I wanted, but I'll be happy with an 85 or something close to that!


Well, yet again I didn't work out today. I left the house at 9 got home at 1 left again at 2:45 and got home at 8. Needless to say, I didn't have time. I hate missing working out. And tomorrow I work, so I won't have time tomorrow either. Thursday I have to get going!

Monday, April 09, 2007


Well, we went for a 2 mile walk this morning. Wow was it hot by the time we got home. I was sweating more than I do when I work out on the elliptical. Not much going on. Put together a grocery list and planned meals for when my mom and brother get out here, then got a little work done. I got on the scale today, I'm down to 222.5, so total loss of 84.5lbs only 72.5lbs to go to my "happy goal" of 150 or 47.5lbs to my "realistic goal" of 175. I'm hoping to be down 90lbs by Saturday when my mom gets here, but I don't know if that's going to happen. I'm averaging about 2lbs a week loss now. Anyways, that's it for today!

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Missed Today

Well, I thought I was going to work out but never got around to it. We got up around 8:30 and hunted for Easter eggs. Then we had breakfast and played with some of our new Easter goodies. After getting Athena down I showered and got dressed then made some deviled eggs. So yummy! I knew I couldn't have one and eat dinner, so I had my deviled egg about 2 hours before dinner. For dinner we had ham/scalloped potatoes/g.beans/rolls. My friend brought dessert over which was totally yummy! I had a little ham, som . beans and 1/4 of a roll, then a small samll slice of the dessert. No candy at all today (good for me). All in all it was a nice Easter Sunday. It just amazes me how I think I have everything prepared so I don't have to do anything right before dinner and I still end up doing a tone of stuff. So strange. Then there's clean up. I'm smart though, I use those nicce plastic plates with dividers and nice heavy plastic forks so we can just toss everything. We used plastic cups too. Jacob had fun putting everyone's name on them and decorating them with Easter stickers. Anyways, spring break is over, so it's back to routine tomorrow, so after Desperate Housewives I'm going to bed!

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Missed Yesterday

Well, I didn't get to work out yesterday. I know "I was too busy" sound like a cop-out but it is actually true! I really wanted to work out. Let's see, my day started with going to get my hair cut & hi-lited, my eyebrows waxed, and a spa pedicure. I went to the school, so they take a lot longer than a regular salon. It was fun to get out and get fixed up. My friend met me there and we did the pedicures together. I love my hair! It's right above my shoulders and has a reddish tint to it now. So I was at the salon from 9:30 until 1:45 so by the time I got home, then I had to work on my project I'm doing, so I worked from about 3 until 7 and stopped to play with the kids inbetween. After getting the kids to bed I worked until 11:30, so working out just didn't fit into the day! I did work out today though. I did .60 in 15:30 and it felt good! Anyways, tomorrow is Easter, so I'm planning to work out after we find eggs!

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Still Going

Yet another day of working out! I took my "Wednesday" break yesterday but worked out today! I did .61 on the elliptical in 16:08. I think starting Monday I'm going to increase my time to 20 minutes and shoot for possibly .75 miles. Going to get my hair cut tomorrow (after almost a year of no haircuts, how sad). I'd post a picture, Susy, but I have no clue how! :) Coming up on 4 months on the 12th. Hopefully I'll be at the 90lb mark by then!

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Made it Through Another Day

Well, I worked out again today. I feel so redundent saying that every day, it's just that I'm really proud of myself for working out over a week now. Normally after 2 days I would have quit. I did .61 on the elliptical in like 16 minutes. Nothing new to report, going to jump on the scale tomorrow for an "official" weigh in!

Monday, April 02, 2007

Feeling Pretty Good

Well, I didn't work out until tonight and I'll tell you I really really didn't want to, but I convinced myself I needed to. I did .60 on the ellipticall in 16:00 and some situps and upper body weights. After I did it I was glad I did because I really had no excuse. Anyways, took on a big project that has to be done Saturday so I'm going to be busting my butt this week working. Still have to work out though! No excuses! Off to bed!

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Yet another day of Exercising

Well, it took a lot to get going today but I sucked it up and did it. I did .60 on the elliptical in 15:48 and 125 sit-ups. I didn't want to do anything, but after I did I felt good. Anyways, just taking it easy today.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Under 230

Well, I got on the scale this morning and I'm down to 227, which takes me to a loss of 80lbs in 3 months and 19 days. WOW! I finally seriously went through my clothes today and tossed out 13..THIRTEEN... pairs of pants that fell off of me! It was such a reality check. I will never EVER go back to that again. I'm officially down to a size 22. The 24, 26, 28s are all GONE! I need to go through my tops now, although that's a differen story because the ladies are still just as big as they were before surgery! It felt good to have so many things that didn't fit, although now my closet looks empty! I have a whole 4 pairs of pants in there! LOL...anyways, worked out today! Did .60 on the elliptical in 15:30 and did 125 sit-ups and some upper body weights. I still don't "look forward to" working out but I dont' seem to dread it as much as I once did. Plus for once in my life I'm proud of myself for exercising. It makes me feel so good to know that I've done it. Sounds corny, but I feel happy about myself when I exercise! :)

Friday, March 30, 2007

Worked out Another 2 Days

Well, I worked out yesterday and today! Yesterday (Thurs) I did .60 on the elliptical in 15:30. That's the most I've done on it and it felt so good! In addition I did 125 sit-ups with the rolling thing and did some upper body weights to start strengthening my muscles! Today (Fri) I walked 2 miles. I was going to do more at my dads but we didn't get over there. Anyways, when I got on the scale last night with my clothes on I was at 229 but I seem to jump around a few pounds every day, so not sure how true that was! I'll weigh in tomorrow morning without clothes to see what my official weight is. Hopefully it'll be under the 230 mark. How nice will that be!

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Took A Break Today

Well, after 5 days in a row I figured today I deserved a break! I had to work all day, so I figured today was a good day to not work out. I'll be back to the normal routine tomorrow! The scale is almost below 230. The last two weeks I've had very minimal loss. Kinda bummed about that, but I know it's a slow process.

Monday, March 26, 2007

4 Days Down

Well, so far I've worked out 4 days in a row! Yeah for me! Let's see yesterday (Sunday) I did 15 minutes (1/2 mile) on the elliptical and 125 sit-ups. This morning we walked to school (2 miles round trip) and I plan on walking again this afternoon for a total of 4 miles. It's so nice not to be out of breath from walking.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Another Day of Working Out

Well, two days in a row! I did 15 minutes on the elliptical (.54 miles) thought I was going to die! I also did 125 situps and just a little lifting with my arms just to get them warmed up for future workouts! I was worn out but it felt good!

Friday, March 23, 2007

Did 4 miles

Well, I decided last night I had to start working out! It is 1 mile to my son's school, so I asked him if he wanted to start walking to school. He was thrilled! So, I know it's Friday, but we started today! We walked to and from school, totaling 4 miles I walked! My feet are killing me! I'm glad I did it though! I just have to keep it up!

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Had to Go Shopping

Well, I finally had to break down and buy some new pants. Mine were literally falling off of me and I looked like a complete slob. I bought a size 22! Yea, considering I was in a "tight" 28 at the time of surgery! Only a couple more sizes before I'm out of the 20's! I haven't gotten on the scale in the last few days, so I'm not sure what my weight is down to. I will have to check tomorrow morning and post! I'm starting to see a difference now, so that is a nice change!

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

3 Months Post-Op

Well, today is my 3 month anniversary! Hard to believe it's been that long. I go to the doctors on Wednesday. I'm hoping for some direction on protein. I know I'm not getting enough but I dont' know what to do to get more. I'm hoping maybe I can just take a pill or something. Anyways, after 3 months, I'm down to 237.3, which makes my total weight loss 69.7lbs. Hard to believe I've lost that much in such a short time. I'm hoping that maybe over the next 6 months I can drop another 70lbs.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Under 240

Well, I got on the scale this morning and I'm down to 239.6. I'M UNDER 240.....WOW! That made me so happy. Next Monday is my 3 month post-op anniversary. My appointment is on Wednesday the 14th. I'm hoping to be down 70lbs for that, so I have like 2.6lbs to go before then! Yea me! What a feeling watching those numbers slowly go down and down. My goal(150) and my realistic goal(175) are starting to seem more realistic now!

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Trying on Some Clothes

Well, I figured I'd try on some shorts that were too tight last summer and out of 9 pairs (3 size 22 & the rest 24) 6 fit. The 22s were snug but probably within the next 6 weeks they'll fit! I wasn't going to do it, but figured what the heck and now I'm glad I did.

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Down to 241.8

Well, the scale is still going down down down. Less than 100lbs to my goal weight or my realistic weight. What a good feeling. Just the stupid clothes. I can see it when I look at myself but the sizes are going down enough for me to feel like it's really really true! Anyways, like I always say, time time time!

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Another Day

Just another day. I didn't get on the scale this morning. Thought about it after I was already dressed and had breakfast. Nothing new to report on this end. Someone is showing the house tomorrow, so I'm fixing to go and clean up the bathrooms and make sure all that stuff is done so all I have to do tomorrow is open the blinds.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

No more Kids

Wow, kids are a lot of work! Not much going on today. Stayed home in my jammies all day long and did some laundry! Jacob has 2 friends over for a sleep over so it's been a crazy night. You don't realize how much energy feeding 2 extra kids and hollering at them takes. No more kids for me! They're watching a movie now, told them it was quiet time because the princess is down for the night! I'm going to surf for a while, nothing at all on TV. Might grab a movie or maybe Friends to watch.

Friday, February 23, 2007

A Busy Day

Wow, today was a super busy day. My sister is moving so we were moving her furniture and boxes for about 3 hours today. After we got home and got the little one down for her nap I relaxed a bit and played some made up war game with Jacob. Then we had a class from 6-7 so we did that then stopped at Mc Donalds for dinner. I had a filet o fish sandwich with only the bottom bun. I ate about 1/3 of the sandwich and was done. It tasted OK but I would have rather had saltines and cheese with some dijon mustard. Anyways, going to watch Ice Age II. Will probably post again this weekend!

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Down to 248.6

Well, I'm almost down 60lbs. I'm so happy but at the same time bummed because I'm still in a 22/24. I want to be a 16 now!! :) But I know time time time. It's only been 10 weeks and 2 I keep reminding myself that. I could never have lost that much that quick without the surgery. I have less than 100 to go! My goal is 150 but realistically I'd be happy at 175. So, if I were to hit my goal I have 98.6lbs to go, but if I hit my realistic goal I have 73.6lbs to go. Keep your fingers crossed for me! I want to be a size 10/12.

Friday, February 16, 2007

So Sad

Well, today Steven left for Missouri. It was so so hard. After being married almost 10 years, we've never been apart more than a week. I cried off and on all day but tried to stay busy. This is going to be so hard. I hope our house sales fast so we can get out there. I'm sure I'll be posting every day to give myself something to do. I just realized I didn't update my weight for my 2 month anniversary. I'm down to 254.3, so I've lost 52.7lbs since pre-op appointment on the 6th of December. Oddly enough, my size has only gone down one. That has me a little bummed. But the number keeps going down, so that's what I have to focus on. Going to start working out this weekend, now that Steven is gone I have NO excuse!

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Terrible Night

WOW, last night was terrible. I went to bed around 11 and about 12:30 I woke up in such pain and nautious. Needless to say I was up until about 6:30 this morning, throwing up and just miserable. I even took the luratab (sp) and got no relief. Luckily my husband let me sleep until about noon and I was feeling a little better, but was still nautious. Throughout the day I felt better and so far tonight I'm doing pretty good. Maybe that was the end of it. It was just the worst pain ever. Tomorrow is my 2 month "anniversary". Anxious to do measurements and get on the scale!

Saturday, February 10, 2007

What a Week

Well, let's see in 3 days I'll be 2 months post-op. I had a little problem Wednesday. I started having a really bad pain in my lower left side of my back. It was so bad it was causing me to throw up. (Basically throw up nothing because I couldn't eat). Anyways, after calling the doctor twice he had me go in to the ER. They did my vitals and said it sounded like kidney stones. Great! After a catscan (sp) and urin test they confirmed that is what it was. Thank goodness they were very generous with the pain medicine. Anyways I'm feeling a little better now. Just not sure how long it takes for them to pass. They told me to check when I go, but I'm not sure what I'm checking for.....oh well, hopefully they'll find their way out soon!

Friday, February 02, 2007

Eating Sucks

It amazes me how much I use to love to eat. Now-a-days I have to force meals down. Eating has become a chore. Things still sound so yummy but then when it comes down to eating I'm just like blah. One thing I've discovered is Wendy's plain baked potato with their chili and some shredded cheese. Seeing how it lasts me about 4 meals, it is soooooooo good! That is pretty much the only thing I actually enjoy eating. Oh, and stick cheese and saltines....OMG that is so sad. I use to look forward to eating a Quarter Pounder with Cheese, or a Whopper, or a Double cheeseburger from Sonic....boy have times changed. I look back and can't believe it's already been 7 weeks and 2 days. The time is just flying by. I'm so glad I went through with it though. I don't regret my decision at all. I'm looking forward to the day I can fit into a size without a W on the end! Anyways, off to bed!

Saturday, January 27, 2007

6 Weeks and 3 Days

Well, I went yesterday for my 6 week post-op appointment. The doctor said everything is great and to keep it up. I'm hoping to start a workout routine next week to help with the skin getting back to where it should be. I'm down to 268.8, so a total of 38.2lbs lost in 6 weeks. That's almost an average of a pound a day. Need to get myself motivated to start working out!

Friday, January 12, 2007

1 Month Ago Today

It's hard to believe it's been a month already. I got on the scale today and I'm down to 272.2. So from date of surgery down 25.4 and down 34.8 since my pre-op appointment on the 6th of December. I'm starting to eat real food again. I had a 1/2 bologna and cheese sandwich today with a few chips. How nice to actually bite into something!!! I made sure to use FF bologna, wheat lo-cal bread, FF cheese, and mustard. It tasted pretty good. I just dread eating. I never know what to have. My husband got me a tea maker, so I've been drinking tea a lot with sweet and low, so no calories. Anyways, I'm doing good, sleeping back in bed now and even on my stomach. I still have a pain that smarts every once in a while if I move fast or bend too far, but other than that I'm feeling great. Anxious to get the green light to start exercising.