Wednesday, July 22, 2009
OK, so it's been a while since I posted, I've discovered facebook is easier, although I don't discuss WLS on there b/c a lot of people don't know I had it done and feel like it isn't the place to "justify" myself. That's why I come here, where people who read have been there and understand. So, I title this post obsessed. I'm starting to think I'm obsessed with myself. I love having my picture taken and I love looking at myself in the photos. Is that crazy? I just got back from Texas and uploaded my pics onto my computer and I kept going to the ones that had me in them! LOL. I actually look good. Sometimes it's still hard to believe I look how I look. Anyways, I got on the scale this morning, and I weighted 147, which is good. I really want to start getting serious about the arm surgery. It is $6,000 and I don't have that just laying around, but I've decided that first Ihave to get to 137 which was my all time low after surgery. Once I get there, I think I'm going to ask my grandparents for a $10,000 bond that they have for me. They had mentioned a while back I could have it for the surgery if I wanted but I wasn't sure. I am just so self conscious of my arms. When we were in Texas we went to some friends to swim and we were playing volleyball in the pool. I just felt so bad about myself. I don't mind my boobs and tummy but my arms just aren't as easily hidden! Anyways, nothing new here, hard to believe school will be starting in less than a month. Don't know where the summer went.