Another Day

Well, yet another day of my new life and I'm surviving. It's hard but every day is a new day. I've realized that I really need to start eating more protien. I've been eating too many carbs. Will be updating my weight in a couple weeks. Tuesday will be 3 weeks. Seems like longer, but only 1 week and 4 days until I can eat normal food.

2 Weeks Post-Op

Well, I'm two weeks out and down 17lbs. I was hoping for a little more, but I guess that's pretty good when you think about it. We made it through Christmas. So many temptations and I can't eat anything. Just mush! We had lassagna and garlic bread and homemade peach cobbler. I did lick a little of the cobbler it was so good! I had the lassagna in small small bites but without meat so it didn't taste as good. I went shopping today and got a lot of bargains. Anyways, going to go for now, will follow up soon!

Another Day

Well, according to my scale I'm down to 281.5 as of this morning with clothes. I've been doing pretty good. The eating is just so hard mentally. Knowing I can only have things that are smushed up! I want a burger or a pizza! I know with time this will go away. Healing pretty good. Still a little soar. My back is hurting more than anything but that seems to be letting up too. Will follow up again soon

Tomorrow Will Be 1 Week

Well, hard to believe tomorrow it will already be 1 week after surgery. I go for my appointment at 2. Hopefully everything is OK. I'm still sore, not using the pain meds though. The eating just sucks and is so hard but I'm managing. I'm just craving everything I can't have. Will check-in tomorrow with my weight and progress! :)

3 Days Post-Op

Well, the day has come and gone. I had the surgery on Tuesday and came home yesterday. I'm hurting a lot. Mainly when I get up and sit and when I cough. OMG that hurts. I didn't have the best experience. I lost a lot of blood so they had to give me 2 pints Tuesday night. Then I got poked for a blood check like every 4 hours for the next day. Anyways, I'm home and doing pretty good. Will try to follow up daily or every other. I want to keep up my "thoughts".

3 Days to Go

It's almost time. Just 3 days left. I've been feeling a little nautious today and I think maybe it's just nerves. It's starting to hit that I'm having major surgery Tuesday. I'm trying to keep my mind off of it, but that's easier said than done. I'm going to get a facial at 2, so I'm fixing to head up to get dressed. Just trying to get the Christmas cards finished up. Printing pictures as we speak. Will probably post tonight! :)

5 Days

Only 5 more days. Wow, so anxious, these 5 days will probably go by super slow! We went to see Santa today and Athena was having no part of that. She cried and cried. At least we got to snap the picture! Anyways, off to bed.

Pre-Op Appointment

Well, I had my pre-op appointment today. I weighed in at 307..yikes! My surgery is scheduled for Tuesday at 2:30pm. I have to be there at 10am. I will only have to stay one night. I thought it would be two, but the doctor said normally one is enough. I will be on a pureed diet for 4 weeks. There is really no limit with lifting or driving or anything, so that's good. I can't believe in 6 days it'll be time. I'm suppose to start my period Friday, which sucks, but I guess it's better I'll be almost done before the surgery....I'd hate to think of having to go throught that right after surgery. Didn't mean to share so much, but hey, you know how much I weigh I mean come on! About two weeks after surgery I'll have to start taking vitamens and a gall bladder pill. I'm not sure how long you have to take that one, if it's only for a few years or just when you're going through rapid weight loss. So Christmas dinner will be some yummy mush! :) But gosh, it will be worth it. Well, I'm watching a Primetime special, What Would You Do? So far it's pretty good. Have to wrap one more gift too. We got my dad a big thing of foreign beers for X-mas. Anyways, I'm sure I'll be posting daily now that I'm so close.

One Week Out

Well, one week from today is the day! I went and got my cashiers checks for my copay. I think that's when it really kicked in that I'm a week out! OMG. My pre-op is tomorrow at 10. It will be a group appointment and will take about 2 hours. Then after that I have to go to the hospital to register. It'll be nice because people at the appointment tomorrow will be having the surgery the same week as me. Well, I'll follow-up tomorrow with what time my surgery is.

9 Days and Counting

Well, we're at 9 days.....almost there! Today was a busy day eventhough we didn't leave the house. Let's see Jacob has friends over to play for a few hours. I got a ton of laundry done and we got the outside Christmas lights done. I had a client who I had to send out Christmas cards for, so I got those addressed today too. My friend who had the surgery brought over a bag of clothes today. Mostly shorts and T-Shirts. If I can fit into that stuff by summer I will be so super happy! She was over today and I just can't get over how great she looks. I'm so happy for her and incredibly jealous at the same time! Anyways, Pre-Op is in 3 days...going to get my cashier's checks, for my co-pay, on Tuesday.

10 More Days

Well, I'm almost there, a week and 3 days. Time is going by so fast and so slow at the same time. I'm getting very very anxious and nervous. I'm just ready to get it done and move forward. I've got the Christmas cards done, just need to put pictures in them. I think almost everything is done. Just need to mail 2 packages and then all the gifts are done.

Still Counting Down

Well, only 5 days until my pre-op appointment and 11 days until surgery.

Approval In Writing Came

Well, I got the actual approval in writing today in the mail. Wow, what a relief to get that. My friend got back in town yesterday, so she came over today. It's been 3 months and 2 days and wow she looks great! Just makes me want it even more seeing her results. Hard to believe it's only 12 days away. Next Wednesday is the pre-op appointment where I'll get my vitals done and my weight. Yikes....12 days!

Approval has been received

Well, I just got a call from the surgery center and they got the approval from my insurance, so it looks like this is really going to happen! 13 days to go!

Just talked to my friend who is 3 months out today and she has lost 65lbs. OMG, how awesome will that be if I have those results. Considering I need to lose 150lbs to get to my goal weight. Now that the approval has been received, I think I can finally start getting excited about the surgery. I've tried not to in case something didn't pan out, but it seems like so far everything is working out. I'm so excited to start my new, healthy life. I think about being able to play with my daughter and chase after my son and I just can't wait.

2 Weeks to Go

Well, if all goes well, two weeks from today I'll have my procedure. I started the semi diet today to try and lose at least 5lbs. I talked to the surgery center today and they said everything was fine and that they talked to my insurance and they'd have the approval code by Friday. I made my appointment today for a facial and pedicure. Time is going by so fast, but still slow at the same time!

16 Days to Go

Well, today was a very busy day. I finished up the work for my one client that was really behind. I will NEVER get that far behind again! Going forward I'll do the books every month! Anyways, I spent several hours working on that. We got the tree finished and the decorations all finshed too. The tree is beautiful. Hopefully Wednesday we can do the outside lights. I got the names on most of the envelopes for the Christmas cards. We got most of the laundry done too. 2 loads left, but Steven can do those tomorrow. Just watching Desperate Housewives then I'm going to bed. I need a good night's sleep. Anyways, going to call the surgery center tomorrow to find out if they got insurance approval.

Almost Ready for Christmas

Well, we got most of the Christmas stuff up today. We got the tree put together and some ornaments on it and all of the decorations out. We will finish the ornaments tomorrow and hopefully get the outside lights up next weekend. I'm almost done with shopping. Just have to get 2 giftcards and some dried apples for my grandfather and something for my step dad and I'll be finished....Finally!!! Other than getting christmas stuff out, we just did some running around. 17 Days and counting!

Well Made It Through Thanksgiving

Well, I made it through my "final" Thanksgiving. Surprisingly, knowing this would be the last Thanksgiving I could "Eat" I really didn't over-do it. I only had 1 plate with a little of everything. I did have a slice of pumpkin pie though! Yum! My sister and I went shopping today for all of the bargins! We had a lot of fun and got a ton of stuff for good prices! Well, counting down the days, only 18 days until my surgery date. I can't believe I'm now within 3 weeks. Time is going much faster than I thought it would. I'm a little worried though because I haven't received anything confirming the insurance approved the surgery or anything. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

Waiting Waiting

Well, the clock is ticking. 20 Days. I'm going to enjoy my turkey tomorrow!

Three Weeks Until The Big Day

Well, 3 weeks from today is the big day! I talked to my friend today who had the surgery on August 28th and she went from 225 to 169 already. WOW! She left town for a while but is coming back next week, so I'm excited to have her back, since she just went through it. Anyways, the time has almost come!

Three Weeks from Tomorrow

Well, three weeks from tomorrow is the big day if the insurance approval comes through! I can't believe I'm almost there. It's hard to believe it's been 6 months since I started this journey. Just keep busy, I keep telling myself!

23 Days

Wow, the time is really going by faster than I thought it would. I guess between working, getting ready for Thanksgiving, wrapping gifts, shopping and doing Christmas cards, I don't look at the clock much. 3 weeks and 2 days. I'm starting to get excited. I told one of my husband's aunts today because she called to see when we were going to Seattle. I told her we more than likely weren't coming and why. Going to call his other aunt shortly and tell her we're more than likely not coming. Anyways, the clock is ticking. I have my pre-op on the 6th, so that's only 16 days away. I got my paperwork in the mail about payments to bring and what to expect at the pre-op appointment etc etc.

Are We There Yet??

I feel like a child, are we there yet, are we there yet, are we there yet. OMG the waiting is going to drive me crazy!!! 25 DAYS!!!

The countdown continues

All of my paperwork came in the mail today. It has all my dates and who the checks need to be made out to. Things are looking good. Just the waiting.......driving me crazy. I try not to think about it, but it's hard.

28 Days and Counting

Wow, 4 weeks out......it's hard to believe it's almost time. I keep hoping that nothing happens to change things. I just can't believe this is finally going to happen.

Told My Mom & Sister

Well, I told my mom and my sister today. My sister is very happy as is my mom, but she's a little worride about her "baby". I got a few things accomplished today. I finished up my 30th birthday scrapbook. I have two more pages, but don't have stickers for them. I didn't start on anything for my final client, but I will this week. I have to! We got some more presents wrapped and the house somewhat straightened up. The cleaning ladies come tomorrow, thank goodness, it's been like 3 weeks! Anyways, going to finish Desperate Housewives then head to bed!

One Month Out

Well, maybe the time won't go by so slow after all. We're one month out as of today! 30 Days! I got all of my clients caught up through October, except one, the challenging one, but I'm going to start working on that today! I wrapped about 10 X-mas gifts last night, it was a start at least! I got my Thanksgiving day cards all done, now it's time to start on Christmas and finish my 30th birthday scrapbook pages (I'm hoping to get that finished today). Lots to do, but it will keep my mind off the countdown!

Told My Dad-32 days to go

Well, today I told my dad about my decision to have the surgery. I was very surprised that he didn't try and talk me out of it. It was such a relief to tell him. I told him I don't want to tell my grandmother until the day before because she worries too much as it is. The last thing I need is her worrying about me for the next month. My dad agreed. I stayed pretty busy today, so I didn't think much about how long I have to wait. Anyways, I guess you can consider this the beginning of the countdown!

Surgery Date Scheduled

Well, my surgery date is December 12. I'm a little bummed that it is so far out, especially since we were suppose to be leaving town on the 15, but you take what you get. The girl said if they have a cancellation they'll call me. Dr. Cottam is very nice. The consult went as would be expected. I have no "red flags". He said it'd be good to try and lose about 5-10 lbs before the surgery, but it's not necessary, just would be good. So now I have to wait and wait and wait for 33 days. OMG, how am I ever going to do that. I guess I better make a list of stuff to do, as getting on the floor to wrap presents won't be an option after Dec 12. I guess I better get busy with getting shopping and wrapping done. Plus I have a client that I've got to get his books done before this. That's my goal....I need to get January-October done before my surgery...yikes!!! Guess I really have no excuse to not stay busy! Anyways, I'm sure I'll be posting daily about the antsy wait!

1 Day

Well tomorrow at this time hopefully if nothing happens I'll be at the doctors for my consultation.

Almost Time

Well, only 1 day and 13 hours until my appointment. I got the money today for the payment so at least I don't have to stress over how that's going to happen. I'm just so anxious, excited, scared, worried.

Waiting Waiting

Well, 2 days and 14 hours until my appointment. I talked to a friend who had the procedure done on August 28 and she has lost 50lbs already. She only started out at 222, but she's 5'1 so her "ideal" weight is like 105. She said she's feeling good and doesn't at all regret having the surgery. For the most part she said she can eat everything just in small portions. I'm getting excited and nervous at the same time. She said that she could have gone in for her pre-op the week after her consult but she had to work around her husband's schedule. So, maybe if I'm lucky I can have my pre-op next week and surgery before Thanksgiving. We'll see!

Countdown

4 days 18 hours......counting down.......very antsy to go to the doctor!

Waiting

OMG, this is going to drive me crazy......5 days and some hours......I'm sure it will drag by!

The Appointment Is Set

Well, if all goes well I'll meet with the surgeon next Thursday at 10:15 for my consultation. After the consult they'll give me my surgery date. Maybe this is actually going to happen. I'm still a little worried that something is going to happen and I won't get to have the procedure. I still haven't told anyone about this. I don't know how my family will react. I think that after the shock wears off they'll be supportive, but I just don't need anyone's opinion on a decision that I have to make. My husband is supportive so that's all that matters to me right now. Hopefully all will go well last week. I'm really nervous that if I start getting my hopes up something will happen. Anyways, 7 days until I get to meet with the doctor. I'm really excited about who it is because he called me back in February when I first started searching the internet for information. When I found out he was the doctor my insurance used and I attended his seminar I figured it must be "ment to be" for him to be my surgeon. Anyways, I'll be anxiously awaiting my appointment.

Message

Well, of course, as soon as I leave the house the phone rings. At 3:30 the surgeon's office called and I wasn't home. I didn't find out they called until 4:58 and they close at 5, so needless to say I didn't get to call them back. They open at 8 so I will call first thing in the morning. I'm guessing it's good news that they're calling. Hopefully they can get me in for my consult ASAP. Will follow up tomorrow about my phone call.

Still Waiting

Well, I am still waiting for my referral to the surgeon. I spoke the the lady today and they should have the referral sent over the the surgeons office tomorrow. I keep saying to myself be patient but it is so hard.

No Call

Well, I still haven't received the call saying the medical director has forwarded my referral to the surgeon. I'm getting anxious. I was hoping I could make an appointment on Monday. We'll see, patience patience I keep telling myself!

Psych Test

Well, I turned 30 yesterday. Geez, that just doesn't seem like it can be real! I went for my psych test yesterday and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I had to answer a 160 question test that was basically trying to see if I was depressed or had other unresolved issues. After that I met with the doctor for about 20 minutes. He was very nice and just asked about my life and stress levels. He said I was a "poster" candidate for the procedure and he felt I would be OK to go ahead. So now it's just the wait for the medical director at the insurance company to approve me for a consultation with the surgeon. Hopefully I'll get that tomorrow so I can make call Monday to get my appointment with the surgeon. Getting Close, but still trying not to get my hopes up.

Getting Anxious

I got the results back yesterday for the EKG, Chest X-Rays, and lab work. Everything came back fine. My foliate was a little high, but they said nothing to be concerned with. I still can't schedule my appointment with the surgeon until I have the psych next Wednesday. Hopefully they'll have the results from that pretty quickly so I can get the referral to go see the doctor. I've alredy been approved, but they can't send it over until the tests are all done. They surgeon's office said it takes sometimes 6 weeks to get the approval, but she said that's what they have to say. Hopefully it'll get approved as quick as the other stuff has. We'll see what happens next week!

3 Tests down and 1 to go!

Well, yesterday I had the EKG, Chest X-Ray, and Lab Work! The Lab was terrible....my veins weren't cooperating so they only got 2 viles from my arm then they had to get 5 more from my hand. The tech was so nice though, he talke and talked to keep my mind off of what was going on. The EKG was quick as was the X-Ray. I go for the psych next Wednesday and that will be the last test (hopefully)! After that one the doctor will give me a release letter to go for surgery then I can have the consult appointment with the surgeon. The waiting is driving me nuts, but I know that I have to be patient.

Appointment Scheduled

Well, I spoke to the office today and got the approval to move forward with the Psyc test. They can't get me in until the 25th. How ironic, on my 30th birthday. Hopefully if all goes well, by mid-November I'll be done with this.

So, Monday EKG, Chest Xrays, Lab Work then12 days from today Psyc. Not sure what happens after all that I can meet with the surgeon and schedule the operation!

We'll see what next week brings.

Still haven't said anything to my family, figured I'd wait until I'm sure I get to have the procedure.

Waiting for a call

Well, I think things are finally starting to move smoothly. I've had some problems with making appointments for the tests I need.

I got the approval from the insurance company to go and meet with the surgeon, but the surgeon won't meet with me until I have all of the tests done.

I spoke to the psyc office and they have to make sure that I've done all the steps needed to move forward with the testing. Hopefully I'll hear from them tomorrow!

Monday I have an appointment to go for my EKG, chest x-rays, and lab work.

I'm hoping I can have this procedure done by the first of November. Time will tell. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

GETTING ANXIOUS

I'm starting to get anxious about my follow-up appointment with the doctor. A friend just had the GBS Monday and has lost 5lbs already. She is in a lot of pain, but is glad she went through with it. I'm anxious to see her through this. Figured it would help me with my decision if I get to go through it with someone. Next appointment with the dietitian is in 2 weeks.

Update

Well, I went for my second visit to the dietitian. I lost a whopping 8 pounds in a month while practically starving myself. Eating 5 times a day is hard, but it's what I have to do. I went to a seminar for the GBS and it was very informative. I have one more appointment with the dietitian then my follow-up with my doctor for the referral to the doctor who performs the GBS. We'll see if the insurance approves it.

Been A While

Wow, didn't realize how long it's been since I've posted. Things are going pretty good. I met with a dietitian last week. I'm on a eating 5 times a day diet. Hard to get use to but I'm adjusting. This is the first step for the GB surgery. I figured hopefully this will motivate me so that surgery isn't necessary. I have to meet with the dietitian for 3 months before the process begins. We'll see what happens....

Issues

I really think I have a problem! Everyday I wake up and think today is going to be the day I truely do this then by the end of the day I've failed.....I can't even keep up a program for a week! Been looking seriously at surgery, but if the insurance doens't cover it there's no way I can pay for it.....Like $25,000.....wow! Never realized how expensive it is!

The Weekend Sucked

Well, I totally blew everything this weekend. I didn't get in my workouts and ate unhealthy! I just got off the phone with a friend who is over weight and she is going to do the gastric bypass surgery. I just can't take that route...I've gotta get myself together and lose weight. I have to stick to this. I am going to try again tomorrow to get back on the right path.

Day 3

Well, today wasn't a work out day, but I still did good with what I ate. I found some light bread that is like 1/2 the calories so it makes my sandwiches less calories. I also tried out those 100 calorie packages of chips, which are nice because they're pre packaged, so I don't have to worry about overdoing it!

Day 2 Evening

Let's see I made spaghetti and garlic bread for dinner. I had only one slice of the garlic bread. Right after dinner I brushed my teeth, so I wouldn't be tempted to snack. I already made my lunch for tomorrow so I should be able to stick it out another day. I work tomorrow, so no work out...yea...I hate working out, if that's what you want to call what I do!

Thanks for the words Vania! I figure if a lot of people know what I'm doing that can only help make me want to be successful!

Day 2

Well, so far so good. Once again, I had 2 pieces of toast with butter, a slice of fat free cheese and 3 slices of thin turkey for breakfast and a glass of water. I got on the Elliptical for 10 minutes, did 100 setups and did 2 reps of 10 of 3 different upper body free weights. For lunch I had a FF Bologna and Cheese Sandwich with mustard and some FF pringles with a Diet DP. I had a Sugar Free Fudgecicle for a sanck this afternoon.

Day 1 End of Day

Well, I made it through one day. I had a frozen Southbeach Pepperoni Pizza for lunch with a Diet Dr. Pepper. After doing some running around I had a Sugar Free popcicle. For dinner I had mashed potatoes, green beans, meatballs with gravy and a diet DP. Not the healthiest meal, but I ate smart. I didn't over due it. I've already brushed my teath, so that's it for the night. See ya tomorrow.

Day 1 Morning

Well, the day has started off good. I had 2 pieces of toast with butter, a slice of fat free cheese and 3 slices of thin turkey for breakfast and a glass of water. I got on the Elliptical for 10 minutes, did 100 setups and did 2 reps of 10 of 3 different upper body free weights. We'll see how the rest of the day goes.....

The Journey Begins

I've decided tomorrow is the day. I've got to do something. At 287.3 lbs I can't keep going up. We'll see how long I can last.